Higher purpose, that’s the term I came across today!
New term for me though, so far I knew I had to have a purpose in life. But now I need to have a higher purpose too, wow.
Lately I’ve been bogged down by multiple spirals of thoughts, each thought going in its own direction and overwhelming me as an outcome of it, in fact these spirals opened up so many new fronts that everything triggered my vulnerabilities.
While I was thinking of my future aspects of career, my mind traversed across the idea of skipping degrees. While I was thinking of accomplishing my grades in Piano my mind ventured on the thought of exploring countries. Anything and everything started piling up and in no time my mind became a host to “thought attack”. The attack which not only made me vulnerable but also shattered my ability to be decisive.
The only way to stop these spirals and loop was to decide onto pausing but with my decisiveness screwed up to this extent, everything seemed like a blackhole with literally no escape.
Everything done and said, I later came across a random article on medium which stated this term “Higher purpose”. This further triggered some more introspection!
You want to go study in a good university abroad but is your higher purpose to stay there or to return to your family and be their pillar?
You want to move cities and gain better opportunities but is your higher purpose to make your loved one proud or to make yourself miserable in the process ?
When you get married, does your higher purpose be your partner or minting money? Im not mixing contexts here, both are important and are needed, but isn’t only one of it a purpose and other one merely an aid to flourish it?
When you get a dog, do you take the relationship for granted or you aspire a higher purpose of living and growing each day with her?
When you get a promotion does your higher purpose be to get more work and stress yourself or your higher purpose remains to learn a balance between personal and professional life?
We claim that we have futuristic vision but we are so short sighted. For good money today we are willing to put everything on pedestal our health, our loved ones, our mental health our choices.
My question is where is the Balance???
We work day and night, but we fail to express care and love to family. Why work then? Is higher purpose to pile more stress
We forget to eat, drink water, sleep even in context of work, is higher purpose to die of an heart attack and leave the family stranded?
We get married but eventually the spark fades away, is it because we find other higher purposes and incline ourselves to that? Why do we find joy in building empire than in having dinner together, does losing partner takes precedence as a higher purpose here?
Where is the friggin balance?
Why aren’t we taught balance in life?
Why are we told that working and compromising family is okay?
Why are we told that not giving time to your loved one is okay as everyone is working hard towards their respective goal?
Why are we told that dogs don’t have much feelings, even if you leave them behind they adjust, why?
Why are we not taught to respect and love out of purity and not out of need, why?
Why is it okay to miss out on a family event because you have a meeting to attend? Yes you earn in those minutes but where are you spending that money apart from your own therapies and medical bills?
My fury still remains the same, where is the balance?
In last 2 years we have seen so many people pass away, some from family, some acquaintances, some icons , some exemplary leaders.
Some couldn’t bear the stress and their heart gave away and some couldn’t bear the lifestyles and their body gave away.
Some stated to focus on health while on death bed and some expressed regrets for not having spent time with their loved one. We do have examples and yet we choose to follow the same rat race of extraordinary work. Why not extraordinary balance?
Where is the inculcation on balance?
Families are disrupted these days. Every other house is dysfunctional , every other couple is in doubt, every other partner is living in expectation, every other dog is waiting, every other family is looking for an opportunity to dine together and every other person is venting out on work, why?
My mission is not to make this world a better place rather my contemplation is just around balance and balance with a higher purpose in mind?
Maybe someday ill enjoy my work because by the end of the day I’d come to my dog and we would celebrate our time.
Maybe someday Ill embrace the tough times because I would see my partner standing next to me giving me strength.
Maybe someday Ill be happy to see my parents visit because we would get a chance to dine together.
Maybe someday Ill cry over failures but it will still be fine because my human pillars of life will bring me back up!
Maybe… I’ll for sure try this out once I figure the entire formula for balance!
Well enough of this one sided rant or a blurred perspective if you’d say but Im having issues contemplating the fact that we would literally put everything at sake just because our purpose and dreams reside in some jobs leading to money. If our Higher purpose resided in higher transcendence of being a human, won’t good jobs or money automatically make its way to us? And won’t we then balance it out like a pro?
Why do we always have to learn the hard way?
